“Aditi??” A hand flashed in front of my face breaking me out of my daze. I was lost in my own world, oblivious to my surroundings.
Shoot!
I looked up at Manisha and saw her face in a grimace.
“I’m so sorry Manisha!” I pleaded, feeling genuinely sorry.
“Well? This is the 3rd time you’ve lost track of everything around you. What’s happening to you?” I think she was more annoyed at the fact that I wasn’t paying attention to her story than me losing track of time.
“Nothing. I was just wondering why she did that to you!” I can get crafty.
She took the bait. “Omg! You won’t believe what she said to me the other day…” on and on she went on continuing her story and I pondered about my recent on goings.
He consumed me. They say what consumes your mind, controls your life and I finally realized how true that was.
Everything and everyone reminded me of him.
All I had to do was spot a tall boy and instantly my heart beat would wise, just thinking of the possibility that it might be him. I got a new talent, I could successfully relate everything to him and my traitorous mind would find a new way to start thinking of him again.
I shook myself and tried to listen to Manisha. The last thing I wanted was a disappointed friend.
An hour later college ended and both of us went to the parking lot to find our scooty.
Yes. Scooty. I liked to call my vehicle a Scooty.
I got my helmet and started my vehicle to return home.
It was a hot Monday afternoon and sunlight was blazing, making my back very warm. I hated this weather, and wished for the cool breeze of winter. We were almost riding out the gate when I caught sight of someone tall in my peripheral vision. I whipped my head to the left and saw him.
He was with his group of friends standing tall amidst them. He was so freaking tall, everyone around him looked so short. In that split second I saw him, I could see his eyes crinkle in joy as he laughed loudly at something.
The moment passed. My scooty was out of the gate. Shoot! NO!
“MANISHA!!” I screamed at her and stopped my scooty by the side. She stopped her vehicle and rushed to see what caused my anxiety.
“Aditi! What happened??” she gasped.
“I saw him!! Here, take my scooty and wait for me, I’ll go see him again and come!” I said quickly heaving my scooty at her.
“What the hell? Aditi—”
I ran back to college unable to contain my growing desire to catch just one more glimpse of him. My heart was beating loudly and sweat poured down my forehead. I pushed my hair back from my face and wiped my sweat. I panted, as I looked around everywhere searching for him.
He was not there!!
I looked at each and every group but I couldn’t find him anywhere.
My guy. He was gone.
My heart fell, disappointed beyond words. I felt a tinge of sadness. I almost thought I should call him, but decided against it. I did not want him to wonder why I randomly called. I dragged myself back to the gate and went outside to get my scooty.
Manisha was instantly alert sensing my mood. “What happened?”
“Nothing, he probably went somewhere else.” I shrugged.
“You’re insane! I can’t imagine how you’ll behave if you guys actually dated!” she declared and went to her vehicle.
Sigh.
She was right. No sensible person would run back just to stare at their crush. But heyy, he’s the only guy in college I’ve ever liked. There’s something about his chinky eyes and lanky structure that makes him impossible for me to resist. He made me antsy and excited every time I was in college and I looked forward for that feeling every day.
I smiled.
He’s my candle light during a freezing winter night, bathing me with his glow and radiating heat for my survival.